In August 2010 two miracles occurred: I stopped drinking and started believing in God

In August 2010 two miracles occurred: I stopped drinking and started believing in God

In August 2010 two miracles occurred: I stopped drinking and started believing in God. At the age of 27, it was’t how I predicted my life would be. If you’d sat me down as a 21 year old pill popping drum n bass DJ and said to me, ‘In six years time you will quit […]

5 habits to help free you from binge eating

5 habits to help free you from binge eating

There was a time in my life when I binged on sugar compulsively and was extremely unhappy. It wasn’t even that I was overweight, my unhappiness stemmed from my negative thinking and the expectations I had of myself to be skinny and ‘fit’. My inner critic was loud and proud as it hissed scathing words […]

Gratitude for 2015’s special moments: a recap on a few

Gratitude for 2015’s special moments: a recap on a few

On the first day of 2015 I began compiling a Little Bits of Happiness Jar (the idea of which came from a coaching friend Tracy Gardner). In it I wrote down achievements, moments of gratitude, love, connection and anything that I felt deserved some recognition.   I started this as a way of acknowledging myself […]

How my shadow saved my life

How my shadow saved my life

Lately I have felt tired, grateful, anxious, hopeful, sad, happy, uncertain, excited, the list goes on. That’s a lot more than I could have said six or seven years ago. Back then if someone asked me how I was feeling I probably would have responded with ‘good’ and then walked away. Anxiety was like my […]

The most important thing you can do to free yourself from negative self-judgement

The most important thing you can do to free yourself from negative self-judgement

Last week an incident occurred when I was teaching and I slipped into fight/flight/freeze mode. I froze on the spot and couldn’t hear what people were saying, and didn’t know how to respond. This has a tendency to happen to me when I notice a threat to my environment. Tara Brach explains it in the following […]

Dear Martina, with love: a letter from a hospital bed

Dear Martina, with love: a letter from a hospital bed

Dear Martina, You lie across from me, high on your hospital bed, your delicate and pale frame awash against the bright white sheets. I feel compelled to watch as my eyes align with yours. Your husband arrives early every morning, his cap positioned neatly on his head, and a bag in one hand. He sits loyally by your side […]

We can make friends with our problems: pain is not wrong

We can make friends with our problems: pain is not wrong

I am writing this post for anyone who has ever experienced pain. Emotional pain, physical pain or mental pain. If you have experienced any sort of pain, or are currently in pain then maybe this will help you. I never thought that at my age (31) I would be experienced in dealing with pain. Even […]

Making space for grief with music and mindfulness

Making space for grief with music and mindfulness

Last week I shared my first series of posts that explored the theme: “Stay close to anything that makes you glad you are alive.” In it I shared about the importance of family, my nephews, and experiencing joy in life’s precious moments. You can read it here. This week, my intention was to write a […]

The hilarity of living with chronic pain and how I came to have hip dysplasia

The hilarity of living with chronic pain and how I came to have hip dysplasia

Sometimes living with chronic pain makes me want to break down and cry. Sometimes living with chronic pain makes me break down and cry. The relentless niggling aches telling me I’m not immortal and that I’m not immune to discomfort and bodily malfunctions is enough to make me boil with anger. Unfortunately for me, this […]

You’ve gotta dance like there’s nobody watching

This is to all my friends and family who have a love for music and a passion for dance: I love you, I see you, let’s keep playing, grooving and shaking until we can groove and shake no longer. “You’ve gotta dance like there’s nobody watching,Love like you’ll never be hurt,Sing like there’s nobody listening,And […]